She wonders if she is the only one who has had this thought (although she drops this opinion by the end of the film).
Now to apply this to chronic illness:
People who are in pain all the time, also often have pain while having relations.
It hurts to have a back rub.
It hurts sometimes for someone to play with my hair.
It hurts to be close to people in this state, but it IS worth it. My relationship is worth it. This feeling of unconditional love is worth it. The feeling of friendship is worth it. The feeling of family is worth it. If life was all about pain, it wouldn't be much worth living.
I miss the most human parts of being human.