Saturday, July 31, 2010

Sunshine and Happiness

I may be sick.  I may not be able to get out of it.  Somehow, I am more or less coming to terms with all of this.  I don't think it ever becomes fully adjusted to as a lifestyle choice, but one has to do what they have to do.

I am back on all of my meds (and never went remotely cold turkey!!), and my body and brain are slightly more comfortable but they still aren't working.  Countdown until next doctor's appointment is on.

Until then, I purchased all of Gala Darling's podcasts/writings to read/listen to, as I think she is so fantastic! I can't wait to have the energy to go through them all.  

On top of that, I'm doing my best to create lists of easy to make foods so that I can try and take care of myself once I move back into my Charlottetown apartment.  

I am trying to listen to my body more (although it is sometimes impossible to understand!), and working on bringing some new med ideas to the doctors' appointments in the upcoming month.

What is helping me to get by?
Have any of you tried to do a med cutback and failed??  Any stories you'd like to tell!  Any pick me up articles you want to direct me too?  I love the support!


Friday, July 30, 2010

Love Me Fridays

Things that are making my life tolerable through this week:
  • My mom seems to be okay.  I love her.  She is amazing.  I cannot lose her.  I appreciate her in so many ways, and the thought eats me up inside.
  • Jonathan has been wonderful and supportive.  I think we are going to come out okay too.
  • I am able to write again(ish)!  My head has been in such a bad spot that I couldn't even put thoughts together.
  • My sister is home for 5 days!!! I so rarely get to see her and she is the cheeriest, most wonderful treat!
  • A queen size bed - Jon and I seriously need to invest in one.  Good life choice.
  • To know that support is out there, no matter how isolated I feel.  I just need to learn to reach out.  Which is a surprisingly hard thing to do.
  • The raising again of my medication. Scary to think how much control something has over your life.  Still, I feel somewhat better than I did before!
  • Coffee ice cream.
  • Half priced nights at the movie theater!
  • My stuffed dinosaurs!
  • Sleeping on top of the bed with a quilt, trying to trick my brain into thinking it is a nap so I can chill out...yes, I'm neurotic.
  • I wrote a to-do list!  I haven't done anything, but it was a start!  
  • Ginger snaps...for being there for my nausea beast :)

(Images from WeHeartIt)

What are you loving this Friday?? Fill a girl in!


Thursday, July 29, 2010

How To Fail At Detoxing

Lately, my posts have been kind of scattered and out of sorts.  It's been a rough week.

  1. Spend your time going to the beach while in withdrawal.  I was wrapped in a wool blanket on the beach freezing to death because of a fever, and full of tremors. Painful and not fun.  Do not recommend.  
  2. Go down slightly on one medication and get so depressed that you completely depersonalize yourself from your body - subsequently, decide offing yourself is the best answer, but get guilt-tripped into avoiding it.
  3. Go down slightly on another medication and feel a burning sensation all along your spine as well as aches and pains all over.
  4. Become intolerable to family members to the point where they forcibly shove the meds back in your mouth again and you don't have the energy to care.
  5. Have your poor mom have a mini-stroke in front of you while being at home attempting to avoid stress! (THANK GOD SHE'S OK).
  6. Proceed to wonder if you even have the possibility to get off drugs or if you are permanently chained to them.
  7. Take note of the fact that in order to live, at least one of the drugs is going to keep getting higher.  Decide that you might as well just go with it, and get back on higher dosing as the lower is failing even worse (although it is hard to tell if the body would ever adapt...).
  8. Feel like you once again failed yourself (although I was told to look at it as an experiment and that helped!).
  9. Instead, decide to make plans that you can post on your walls so that you can know how to take care of yourself every day.
  10. Continue putting it off because you are too sick to come up with decent ideas...
So that is where I am currently.  What do you think?  I wish I could make a decision either way, but I feel like I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't.

Have any advice?  Any ways to fail to add to the list? Stories?  Do tell!


Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Pop Culture Wednesday

I don't have a whole lot of energy to write this post, but I'm going to anyways. I want to keep my life as regular as possible, and I love this blog more than just about anything!  Thank you for all of your love and support yesterday, I'm feeling better about potentially someday having a normal life :).

I haven't watched much (or read, or moved, or anything...) lately, but here are some reviews of what actually went in my brain.

The Slammin' Salmon:

This was one of the funniest movies I have ever watched in my entire life.  I did not expect anything of it going into it, but it kept me entertained the entire time (even if some of it is kind of horrible!!).  It a film that just one-ups each of its gags, but it is worth it for a laugh.  I need laughs right now.  I need to find myself a copy.

Match Point:

Smart, clever, sexy...but not in my favorite Woody Allen movies.  It just doesn't have his humor, which is what I relate too most.  Still a fantastic watch, but certainly doesn't make you feel any better about life by the time you come to the ending.  Save this movie for when you are willing to ponder the way the world works, and not if you are depressed.


I put this on (one of my favorite movies of all time - dialogue wise!) and promptly fell asleep on the boyfriend. Either way, one of the most fun movies to use to steal your time!  It's always lovely :).


AMAZING. As close to perfect as perfect gets. Go. ASAP. All I need to say.

Fill me in on your pop culture recommendations!!


Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Hard Road Ahead

Severe emotional dysregulation.

Potential high functioning on the autism spectrum.

No brilliant ideas as to how or why, just that they believe the disorder to have been there since birth.  

There are no great therapies or meds for the treatment of any of these, so I am considering just never leaving my room again.  But that would be a poor example for my beloved chronic illness readers. 

I am going to get my brain power back and I am going to get these things on track.  I'm a poet apparently.

I would take a picture of myself, but I haven't washed my hair, showered, or changed my clothes in days. Screams depression and whatnot. 

Okay, sorry for the crummy blog post today.  I'll be back in full force hopefully by tomorrow.


Monday, July 26, 2010

Things That Bug Me Mondays

So, it's been a downer of a week - let's see if I can get some of it off of my chest!
  • My body hurts more than it ever has in my life. If it gets worse than this, my brain will check out!
  • Not being able to take care of myself :( - I'm trying to fight for my independence back, although sometimes I worry that it isn't a fair battle.
  • I have to sleep alone and I'm having a terrible go with staying down for more than a couple hours at a time.
  • My brain hurts when I think of the spreadsheets I am going to be churning out this week, but I'm excited to make plans for change all the same!
  • The endless dark thoughts. I don't like them, I don't want them around...I play tv, movies, and music...but sometimes they creep in all the same.
  • The fact that my boyfriend's mother is feeling so horrible and that I can't do anything to help!
  • I have to spend money...but it will be on getting a cell phone so I can stay in touch with people!
  • The fact that even though it hurts for me to lay in bed and type this --> I'm not writing any more negative things.  This change is going to be for the better.  No matter what.  

(Images from WeHeartIt)

Okay everyone, come rant along with a girl as she finds it painful to lay in bed!  Everyone needs a good dose of grump now and then! 

(your pukey, but beloved blog writer haha)

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Justification Of My Actions

So, I've gotten the occasional comment on twitter that what I'm doing right now does not look right.

As a result, I figured that I might as well try to justify my position on an issue that some of my readers don't know about.  Currently, I am in the process of trying to reduce and then fully detox from most, preferably all (but unlikely), medications that I am taking.

For 9 days straight while on all of these medications, I bawled my eyes out 24/7.  They obviously were not working in any way, shape, or form.  I'm not on first line medication treatment for any of my diagnosed illnesses.  Why no doctor supervision?  Well a) they are all conveniently on vacation and b) none of them have ever dared to want to follow me through the course of changing.

I moved home to live with my parents, at least for the next couple of weeks.  Not exactly what a girl at 23 plans, but I am too sick to function, and my mother is a brilliant caregiver (and pharmacist!).

These first 2.5 days with lessened medication in my body have been hell.  I've had a fever that shook me to the core, tremors, nausea, vomiting, panic attacks, collapsing, and excruciating pain.  I have tried to detox like this many times, and have always quit by the third day.  This time I am determined.

I don't necessarily believe I could live a life without drugs, although I think it is a brilliant idea in concept.  I just need to be on the right drugs.  And in order to do that, I need to come off of the wrong ones.  
  • No matter how much it hurts
  • No matter how much I cry
  • No matter how hard of a process it is
This is happening.  The course I am on right now = death. I don't want that to happen, and I'm willing to fight however hard I need to fight.  


Saturday, July 24, 2010

Some Saturday Lovin'

So far, the last two weeks have been closer to hell than I really wanted to know about - so I'm going to post pictures of cute, fuzzy animals that may make me (and some of you!) feel better.

(Images from WeHeartIt)

Send me all your warm fuzzies people! I'm detoxing from meds and so far it has been about negative amounts of pretty :(.

Lots of love,

Friday, July 23, 2010

Love Me Fridays

  • Cleaning to music.  In fact, doing anything to music.  I don't care, I just want music on!
  • My boyfriend has been wonderful to me since our little moment of instability.
  • Air conditioning...I feel like I'm going to keel over and die in this fact, I did keel over haha.
  • Tweetdeck on my computer now.  I get excited any time a message pops up!
  • My online besties. They know who they are and they know I love them to pieces.
  • The fact that today I feel like my body/mind is about 20% less spastic...the med reduction is totally slowly working (probably from the mass clonazepam...)
  • Being able to feel strength in my legs for the first time all week! Wooo, I missed walking!
Ack, I'm having difficulty with this because this week has really just been absolutely miserable. Okay, regroup.
  • The fact that I got to get to know my friend and her daughter better by staying at her house all weekend.
  • The Internet for running some distraction.
  • It briefly cooled down on this Island. Thank God.
  • I can't wait to see Inception and Salt!

(Images from WeHeartIt)

I'm having a really hard week my loves! Tell me what you are grateful for this week!


Thursday, July 22, 2010

Meltdowns 101

So today I am going to talk about meltdowns, as I have a serotonin toxicity thing going on in my body.

I know we all have them.  Those with a chronic illness tend to have them a bit more than average.  I might even have them a bit more than average of the chronic illness group hahaha.

I have meltdowns over money because I can't work.
I have meltdowns over feeling like a burden.
I have meltdowns over being scared I'm going to die.
I have meltdowns over the fact that sometimes dying crosses my mind as a good thing.
I have meltdowns over the amount of anxiety from not properly controlled brain chemicals/hormones.
I have meltdowns over keeping my boyfriend awake when he has to work in the morning and I don't.
I have meltdowns over large groups of people and lots of noise.
I have meltdowns over the idea of living a long life with this much pain.
I have meltdowns over the fact that a simple shower or hug can hurt me.
I have meltdowns that I am only 23 years old and seriously lack on the ability to have fun.
I have meltdowns because no one I know in person understands what I am going through.
I have meltdowns because the people that do understand are in the Internet world and I wish I could be with them when they are in pain.
I have meltdowns that my boyfriend will no longer find me attractive.
I have meltdowns when people change their plans with me at the last minute because it takes me so long to prepare for any outing.

Basically, I have started Cryfest 2010.

As a result, I'm sorry if I'm behind on reading people's blogs - I can hardly manage to write my own.  For some reason I choose to do this instead of anything else.  I need the therapy of it I think.

(Images from WeHeartIt)

Anyone else having meltdowns these days??


Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Pop Culture Wednesday

As I'm slowly dying of heat, I spend most of my time trapped in my bed with an air conditioner and some movies!

Green Zone:

I can't say I was extremely pleased with this film.  It was an important tale of political whistle-blowing about the Iraq War, but contains nothing special.  The whole process felt devoid of any real emotion, minus a solid performance from Matt Damon.  I wanted more, but still a 7 out of 10.

Pulp Fiction:

Everyone knows this film is amazing.  I don't need to write much about it, but I am rarely ever disappointed by anything Quentin Tarantino ever puts out (Death Proof maybe...).  Witty, violent, and completely entertaining -10 out of 10!

Clash of the Titans:

Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooring.  Could not even pay attention to the entire thing.  Not my cup of tea.

Repo Men:

Crazy, futuristic, thrill ride.  I won't spoil the ending for anyone, but I vaguely saw it coming.  Still highly entertaining, but I will admit - it was almost too graphic and upsetting at points for me.  I liked the idea of being able to have an almost entirely artificial body though (I wonder why?! haha...).  I'm giving it a 7 out of 10.

What have you been watching, listening to, or passing your time with this week??  I always love a good suggestion!


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Hits To The Head

I am writing this post after a nasty fainting spell has left me with a great big goose egg on the back of my head.  I think I would like to stop falling down please.  Jon now gets to monitor me for a concussion all night haha.

Also, I had an EEG to check for seizures (won't know anything for another two weeks, but I doubt it...).  However, there is NOTHING pleasant about getting strobe lights in your head to bring on a migraine (also helped by smashing my head into the floor).

I also got completely lost trying to find my way home today.

It apparently has not been my day.

Tell me my loves, what have you been up to??


Monday, July 19, 2010

Things That Bug Me Mondays

This week...has been in the top 5 hardest weeks of my life.  Not gonna lie.  So I'm kind of excited to attack my blog with my extra frustration! Haha.
  • The ability of my brain, when in distress, to counteract every sleeping medicine I possibly have.  I have been running on no sleep for days.  It doesn't help that I'm in a different location and that my boyfriend has gone to Quebec City (so jealous!).
  • My arms and legs are too weak to use!!  It has to be a lack of sleep problem, but it is painful to type and I've fallen with my crummy legs about 8 times in the last 2 days.
  • The fact that I feel like I'm a constant burden, especially when my mother has to carry the heavy things because I can't.  We went to the beach and I swear I got glares that I was a spoiled and selfish person.
  • I am discouraged to drive by both family and friends - which is a killer hit to the independence factor.
  • How hard it has been to write blogs lately.  My brain will come back.  I swear.  Okay, I more hope.
  • Wondering whether or not my doctor will give me a hard time to write an opiate prescription in small quantities.  Sometimes I just cannot take the pain.
  • Certain people.  Bad people.  People I want everyone I know to avoid.
  • Missing some of my Internet beloveds who are feeling pretty under the weather too!
  • Missing my boyfriend.
  • Ninety dollar powder vitamins that are grittier than gritty.

(PostSecret images from WeHeartIt)


Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Tough Questions...Haha

So, everyone knows by now that it is a rough weekend on my end (despite the fact that I love staying out here, change is just hard on my system!)

Luckily, I'm a stubborn bastard and refuse to let this get me.  I worry that people will think I'm complaining too much, but I write a health blog and have a tendency to ponder life's complexities too much.  

So I'm going to ask some questions to my wonderful readers!

Is there anything people would like to see on this blog as a regular feature?  I always love suggestions! :)

Is there anything about the blog that isn't satisfying?

Feedback would be loved!


Saturday, July 17, 2010

Finding My Way

I am back to being super sick.
I win at life.

I have nausea 24/7 that the Zofran and Cesamet are not keeping under control, crazy sleeping patterns, and massive pain caused by both stress, Fibromyalgia, TMJ, and Myofascial pain syndrome.  On top of that my emotions are completely out of whack and I spend half my time crying now (I'm thinking this may be a med adjustment issue...or I may be losing my mind...could really go either way here).

However, I have met some very special people online.  They actually make me look forward to waking up (which is more than I can say for anything else other than people in person...and even then sometimes haha).

I would like to stop hurting now please.
Can I get off the ride??

In as many ways as I absolutely HATE having these illnesses, I am grateful for what they have done for me.  Few people at my age are as serious about knowing what they want out of life (in my case, wanting to devote my time to spreading awareness, raising funding, living in the country, and being able to write and paint any time I want!).  

Even though my speech, actions, and general ways of existing get increasingly unclear, my view of what I want out of my time on this planet is turning crystal.

Funny how that works.

(By the way, the country is if I'm a little off with the timing of my posts, I apologize in advance <3)


Friday, July 16, 2010

Love Me Fridays

  • New twitter friends and the meeting of a twitter friend in real life!  Twitter is the shiz people, any of you who are not on there need to hop on the bandwagon!
  • One dollar drink days at McDonald's so I can get cheap diet cokes to soothe my occasionally aggressive stomach!
  • Assassin's Creed II being one of the few video games of Jon's that I like to watch!!
  • Many trips to the beach [as I find salt water a healing property :)]
  • Moving the stereo system into the bedroom so we can listen to great tunes.
  • Dream filling up shopping carts online and pretending I could actually checkout.
  • Budgets.  I'm going to make one this weekend if it kills me.  The brainpower alone might.
  • Naps in air conditioned rooms :).
  • Studying relaxation techniques, because my body has gone stiffer than a board!!
  • The amount of to-do lists I am going to churn out as soon as I decide which day planner to buy!
  • This link:
  • Spending extra time with a friend this weekend :)

(Pretty/funny pictures from WeHeartIt)

What is making your life better this week?? I need a pick me up :).


Thursday, July 15, 2010

Ways To Beat The Summer Heat

So lately I've been finding it absolutely excruciatingly hot.
I do every summer (it's kind of my thing...).

As a result, I am always on the lookout for ways to cool down.  Here is what I've come up with so far:
  • Cool showers - wet hair always briefly makes things better.
  • Air conditioning (although I only have a small one for the bedroom because they are so expensive!)
  • Fans (but sometimes I find air blowing on me painful...)
  • Facecloths wrapped around your neck.
  • Drinking ice cold beverages!
  • Wearing sundresses.  All of the time.  
  • Spending time in shopping centers (for those minutes to hours that I can stand up for...)
  • Nap (when I nap my temperature goes down, oddly enough - even without the air conditioner!)
  • Spritz water on yourself with a spray bottle!
  • If you have a basement - be in it!
  • Eat cold food so you don't have to use your stove and oven.
  • Do not drink alcohol, as it can cause flushing and hot flashes!
  • Popsicles.

(Images from WeHeartIt and Jon's phone)

What am I missing?  Are there other great tips for cooling down from my temperature-sensitive friends??


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Pop Culture Wednesday

This seemed to be my week to watch mediocre movies, but I'll review them (and not necessarily recommend!!).

The Bounty Hunter:

This was....okay.  Solid 5 out of 10.  Jennifer Aniston looks like a California goddess in this movie.  It almost made me want to be tan and blonde and feisty.  Well, I used to have the feisty part covered, before this silly illness took the wind right out of me!  So for those who spend a lot of time on couches - it's worth a watch if you are bored and looking for a couple of cheap laughs :).

The Runaways:

I REALLY enjoyed The Runaways.  I went in not expecting much, and saw the true birth of Dakota Fanning. This girl is going to be a huge star!  Kristen Stewart is also the perfect choice as Joan Jett.  Sex, drugs, rock n' roll, and the start of a fantastic all girl band - what's not to like??  By far the best movie I watched all week!

Cop Out:

This was an abomination of all things that can be called movies.  My friends and I couldn't finish it.  Do not even bother.

Hot Tub Time Machine:

I also watched this film with friends, and I think I was the only one who wasn't extremely fond of it.  It's cute, and I'd still recommend it - but I found it supremely confusing and disjointed.  Plot holes can be found left, right, and center.  It felt like it was attempting to be this year's The Hangover (another movie that I felt was overrated).

What pop culture have you been taking in this week??


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Life and Love is Hard (Wisdom-riffic!)

So last night my heart was broken a little more, as everyone who follows me on twitter is well aware of by now.

Being with a sick person is incredibly difficult.  I'm well aware.  It's hard to live with myself, let alone live with me.  I never know about making plans in advance (despite the fact that I will try to control my life endlessly), events are cut short due to feeling crummy, I cry more than my fair share, and sometimes people need to take care of me.

I can't make any promises that these illnesses are going away.  They are called chronic for a reason.  I could be running in a year, or I could be in a wheelchair.  I have NO IDEA.  No one does, when it comes to their lives.  But I have goals and dreams and ethics, and I want someone with me with goals and dreams and ethics that can align and overlap.

We love each other.

But no one loves illness.

So where does that leave me?
(Image from WeHeartIt)

Since the writing of this blog, he determined that I was worth the gamble.

(Thank God for Twitter and this blog, as the love and support is overwhelming!)


Monday, July 12, 2010

Things That Bug Me Mondays

Oooooo.  It might end up being a long list this week.  I've been a little blargh the whole last week :(

  • The welts from mosquito bites.  I swear they smell sick blood and need to have it.  For some reason, I always end up with a gazillion more bites than everyone else who is out with me.
  • My car broke down.  This is like the third time it has broken down in the last collective 365 days. 
  • The heat.  The heat.  The heat some more.
  • Pushing myself too hard and ending up in bed for most of the weekend.  But hey, I do this all the time so, what else is new?
  • Being put into awkward and mean people situations that raise my blood pressure, and make me want to harm the other person (this happens to me VERY RARELY!)
  • Getting stuck going places where the boyfriend isn't driving me in my own car.  I need an escape route because I get so worn down so quickly, and being kept there for hours past my limit does not make me a tolerable human being. 
  • Heartburn. Ow.
  • Being too tired to blog about anything worthwhile.  It will turn around.  I promise.  
  • The fact that there are so many amazing people afflicted with similar problems and so few of us are getting any help.  Makes me feel helpless.
  • Emotional trauma. Nuff' said for now :(.

(Images from WeHeartIt)


Sunday, July 11, 2010

I Still Need More Sleep...

Things that I am doing/have done so far this weekend:
  1. Looking at this picture:
  2. Catching up on twitter.
  3. Debating what to do for money (part-time job?)
  4. Working on wordpress themes (mind you I keep putting it off because I'm a lazy-pants).
  5. This ME/CFS video that I keep planning to watch and getting distracted by life:
  6. Giving myself carpal tunnel as I have deemed it too hot to type on my desk :(.
  7. Healthy, gluten-free, low glycemic index, low-energy to make meals.  If anyone has any of these, PLEASE send them my way! This heat is brutalizing me!
  8. Stalking Facebook photos.
  9. Putting ice and after-bite on my big fat welts!
  10. Eating watermelon in bed and debating a cry and a nap (being an all around grump pants...).
And it's taken me all day just to type this!  So you can imagine how little actually was done (minus the last two - those occurred for sure...).

What is everyone else doing with their weekend?  In bed, like me?  Off on exotic travels?  Tell, tell!


Saturday, July 10, 2010

Running on Empty

I am exhausted.
I am beat-down.
I am SO sore.
I am covered in mosquito bites.
I pushed myself too hard.
In a lot of parts it was worth it, and in other ways I should have been smart and stayed home.

I'm running on empty now.

I'll write something actually interesting come tomorrow :).

(Image by Summer Pierre)

How is everyone doing this weekend??


Friday, July 9, 2010

Love Me Fridays

So.  It's full blown summer now, time to rhyme off the things I feel thankful for this week:
  • The beach, my parent's house, Sarah's house - anywhere with serious water viewing :)
  • It was my old mascara making my eyes hurt, so this new one is a pleasant change!
  • My online group of friends who make me feel so supported and allow me to fight through any pain I have, because I know one of my friends likely is currently feeling it even worse (that might be an f'd up psychological thing right there hahaha).
  • My sketchbook for allowing me to make images and write at any time, no matter where I am.
  • My boyfriend's cell phone for allowing me to be a twitter addict while on the road.
  • Making my first tiny amount of money off of the Internet!!
  • The excitement of trying to create a new Wordpress layout to really take to the next level :)
  • The fact that my mother is willing to drive over an hour to take me to all of my appointments because I have such fuzz brain that I manage to miss half of them.

(Images from WeHeartIt)

What in your life are you thankful for this week?? I sure had to stretch to get those, as I think it has been more bad than good, but I do what I can :).

Hope you are all well for the weekend.


Thursday, July 8, 2010

Dream Careers

Jobs that I have managed to briefly have while being sick:
  • Retail clothing cashier
  • Sex shop cashier
  • Call center worker
  • 1 month stint at being an admin assistant.
Careers I would love to try on for size if I wasn't so sick:
  • Travel journalist
  • Magazine editor
  • Nutritionist
  • Neurologist
  • Professional or personal shopper
  • Investigator
  • Actress
  • Chef
Okay, honestly I'm not that picky in this situation, I just wish I could move and think as fast as others.

Instead, I'm aiming to be a researcher and writer (with a little artistry thrown in!).  It takes me forever to type out a coherent sentence with the brain fog, but I'll keep trying.

What about everyone else...what would you be career-wise without your illness? Or what were you prior to the development of the illness?


Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Pop Culture Wednesday

I'm surprised I've managed to watch anything this week as my energy level has been at about -10 except for on one day.  All of these have been viewed in a partial brain fuzz coma, so take my reviews lightly haha.


I had seen the first nine or so episodes of this show when it first premiered, but my interest waned and I moved on to something else.  My boyfriend has been getting recommendations on how good it is, so now I must watch it again.  It's cute.  I love Walter.  It is amazing they get away with that level of gore on a mainstream television station.  It's nice, it's fun, but it doesn't blow me away!

When in Rome:

I expected this to be bad.  Really bad.  Painfully bad.  It actually has some redeeming points to it, despite the ridiculous story-line.  Plus, I think Kristen Bell and Josh Duhamel had some pretty decent chemistry.  It was a fun watch while feeling sorry for myself on the couch.

Remember Me:

For some reason, I could only find a Spanish poster.  Oh well.  You all understand the general concept here.  I had never understood the buzz about Robert Pattinson until I saw this movie. I then became stalker-y in love with him.  I thought this was a riveting film (albeit REALLY DEPRESSING), and I don't know how I didn't know the ending was going to punch me in the guts like that.


I watched this because I am a really big fan of the up-and-coming Amanda Seyfried.  It was decent.  Lack of trust, affairs, sketchy prostitutes that look as good as she does, obsession, suicide...the whole shebang was present in this film.  It felt like an opposite sex Fatal Attraction.  So if that's your, but I wouldn't go too far out of my way to watch it again.