Today was a big day for me.
I have been having SEVERE skin pain lately, to the point I'm constantly hitting 9/10 pain levels. Everyone knows that my blog posts have been bordering on miserable as of late.
Thankfully, my mother always knows when to step in - and she did today. I went and saw my psychologist, where we discussed my suicidal thoughts and my mass crisis state of over-sensitized living. She actually thought some interesting theories regarding my psyche. I have hopes that she will be able to help me develop some sort of strategy to limit my emotional disregulation, massive fear, and instability.
My mother called the pain clinic, as I couldn't. I have been labeled a drug-seeker too many times over the last 12 years, and I just can't stand asking for more. I got upped to using codeine contin twice daily, with extra codeine to take for breakthrough pain. On top of that, they also upped my gabapentin for skin pain.
For the first time in recent memory, I am not in mass amounts of agony. I can think (minus moderate sedation). I am itchy, but that kind of comes with the territory.
It's so much more relaxing on the brain. May my tolerance for it not rapidly grow!
What are your doctors (and you) using for your pain?? I always love to know what works for other people!