I am having moderate panic attacks about the whole thing, but they are mostly related to change and the lack of control I feel over any situation. I should think positive. I should think about the changes, such as the ability to go outside without it being a huge event with staring people. The thought of not having drug users in our hallway and a drug dealer upstairs is mind-blowing. We could have a place that wouldn't have a hole through the wall in the hallway, the narrow staircase, or the backwards door (can anyone say fire hazard??). There would potentially be more help to take care of my failings at emotional regulation.
Jon is thinking he might be okay with coming with me, as I've started to cry all the time again and I'm back to the insomnia.
I think I need a change. I just need to figure out how.
What about you? Do you prefer to live in the city or the country?? The suburbs? How does it affect your illness?