Some would say, well Annie you technically are! You're young! You could do whatever it is you set your mind to! These people, while well-meaning, are completely off base in terms of being under the hold of Fibromyalgia and Autoimmune issues.
I could potentially obtain better health-care opportunities if I moved. However, I am borderline incapable of holding down a job. In this case, to separate myself from my support system is not an option. Plus, I would never do that to Jonathan, as he has a wonderful job and opportunity growing for himself right here.
I want to take trips.
I want to go camping.
I want to make and build relationships.
And yet, it all seems like more effort than it's worth. To go on a trip or camping, I have to pack an extensive amount of medication, those heating pads that don't need electricity, special food, and make sure there are lots of bathrooms around. Even then, there are no guarantees I won't just lay there absolutely miserable and in pain without the comforts of home. A lot of it has to do with fear. Some say anxiety leads to Fibromyalgia in a way, but Fibromyalgia has a way of creating anxiety beyond what I ever thought was possible. Life is a constant state of upheaval.
How does one meet new people in this state of life? The Internet I suppose - and I have met some people I have desperately wished were my real-life friends here. I want to give a special shout out to Krista for introducing me to her wonderful friend Kendall, whose conversations rock my socks. Also, MAJOR love for ChronicBabe, where I have met some of the most fascinating, strong, and inspiring women. Let's live in fantasies shall we???
Here are some of the places I wish for:
Images from WeHeartIt
What about you? Any avid traveler's/dreamers out there?