I know we all have them. Those with a chronic illness tend to have them a bit more than average. I might even have them a bit more than average of the chronic illness group hahaha.
I have meltdowns over money because I can't work.
I have meltdowns over feeling like a burden.
I have meltdowns over being scared I'm going to die.
I have meltdowns over the fact that sometimes dying crosses my mind as a good thing.
I have meltdowns over the amount of anxiety from not properly controlled brain chemicals/hormones.
I have meltdowns over keeping my boyfriend awake when he has to work in the morning and I don't.
I have meltdowns over large groups of people and lots of noise.
I have meltdowns over the idea of living a long life with this much pain.
I have meltdowns over the fact that a simple shower or hug can hurt me.
I have meltdowns that I am only 23 years old and seriously lack on the ability to have fun.
I have meltdowns because no one I know in person understands what I am going through.
I have meltdowns because the people that do understand are in the Internet world and I wish I could be with them when they are in pain.
I have meltdowns that my boyfriend will no longer find me attractive.
I have meltdowns when people change their plans with me at the last minute because it takes me so long to prepare for any outing.
Basically, I have started Cryfest 2010.
As a result, I'm sorry if I'm behind on reading people's blogs - I can hardly manage to write my own. For some reason I choose to do this instead of anything else. I need the therapy of it I think.
(Images from WeHeartIt)
Anyone else having meltdowns these days??