I am back to being super sick.
I win at life.
I have nausea 24/7 that the Zofran and Cesamet are not keeping under control, crazy sleeping patterns, and massive pain caused by both stress, Fibromyalgia, TMJ, and Myofascial pain syndrome. On top of that my emotions are completely out of whack and I spend half my time crying now (I'm thinking this may be a med adjustment issue...or I may be losing my mind...could really go either way here).
However, I have met some very special people online. They actually make me look forward to waking up (which is more than I can say for anything else other than people in person...and even then sometimes haha).
I would like to stop hurting now please.
Can I get off the ride??
In as many ways as I absolutely HATE having these illnesses, I am grateful for what they have done for me. Few people at my age are as serious about knowing what they want out of life (in my case, wanting to devote my time to spreading awareness, raising funding, living in the country, and being able to write and paint any time I want!).
Even though my speech, actions, and general ways of existing get increasingly unclear, my view of what I want out of my time on this planet is turning crystal.
Funny how that works.
(By the way, the country is amazing...so if I'm a little off with the timing of my posts, I apologize in advance <3)